crossroads

soo much to say an yet i blog so rarely. .. today, after keeping so much inside me for almost an year, i came back to see whether im still enlisted here n i read a comment from him posted almost 6 months back n it ws so sweet and loving that i almost started crying!

so wierd and it always happens to me wenever im alone i hv so much to say and wenever its time to finally say then im always at a loss for words! always happens..without fail!

like right now .. :s

im at a crossroads in life with a lot of options, some that i hv the courage to take up but not necessarily the interest and others that i wud really like to explore but not the courage to do so.

i don kno how to talk to ppl.. n this end up hurting or distancing myself from most of them. this is y i ve also never had any solid bff-ships with anyone and i really miss it.

i also don understand ppl who are always so positive. abt their failures, abt their "settled for" achievements. ..always soo happy and proud of themselves. im a pessimist. n mostly abt myself. a classic case of showing myself down to everyone. i don kno if its a low self esteem issue or wat but i don kno how to rectify it.

I however am fortunate enuf to have that one person in life who is supposed to love me n cherish me for all my goods and bads, ups n downs. n no i hvnt married him yet.. but hope to ..one day ..

n yes i am going to rant abt myself only ... mostly.. in my posts becoz as i said before, this is the only place where i cn speak abt myself. share my feelings.. tell u, whoever u are, if u exist at all or not, abt myself and my feelings... im no writer... so i probably wont be able to enchant anyone with my carefully threaded words.. so im just gng to be me n spills my guts here...


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